A Letter to Dad

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11:28 pm

Hi Papa! Sounds weird right? You maybe thinking what the hell in the world is going on right now for me to write you a letter. Well, I just wanna let you know that I got inspired with Old Harry Wright. He’s the main character in the novel that I was reading early this morning when you asked me to dropped in your place to get my baon.
At the back of that book, it says “this book is must read for the whole family.” I know that you’re not a bookworm that’s why I will share you the best line that suits you..

But before anything line, I want to confess something.

I don’t know when was the first time I called you “Papa”. I’m curious if I just dropped a single word or I repeated the word as if a bouncing ball.. what was your reaction when you heard that? Did you sobbed because of happiness? Lol

I am also wondering when did you hold my hand when you were teaching me how to walk. Was I wearing pink slippers or shoes with a teddy bear strap? Did you ran out through me as I walk worrying what was happened with me, crying? Then you found out that I got my knees bruised?

Sorry if I have lots of questions. I don’t know those things because you never told me. I’m pondering what is your facial reaction right now.. but I don’t wanna think about it.

You’re really my father. Not just because we have the same blood running in our veins and we are holding the same surname. We’re simply the same because we’re both inexpressive. For almost living 18 years with you, the wall between us becomes taller and thicker. I’m afraid that we couldn’t see and hear our voices as time goes by.

I don’t wanna make a move to say or ask certain things. I used to stuck myself with a book or a pen, and I don’t have the courage to ask because I find it weird and messy..

One more thing, I wanna say I hate you.

I hate you when you made Mama cry, that you were dating that freaky woman who made friends with me for she to get closer with you. when I found out that you guys were having a mutual stuff, I promised that I will never make friends with women twice as my age. Their intentions suck!

I hate you when you always hang-out with your so-called friends and drink until three in the morning. That’s not the right way of showing that you’re friendly, Pa. you’re no longer a teenager for some peer pressure.

I hate you when you always tease my crushes. What’s wrong with you Pa? Those guys look damn good unlike your exes who… no comment.
Well then, I wanna give my thanks..

Thanks for bring so patient. Unlike mama, you do not grabbed a stick or broom to hit me when I commit mistakes.. you have always been my companion in the family. You’re friends are lucky because they got a good comrade like you.

Thanks for not smoking. We both hate the smell and it really sucks, right? At least we don’t have lungs to worry. But watch out your liver, Pa. you don’t smoke but you often drink.that will burn your liver.

Thanks for telling me your old-times. Though I have heard them so many times, I really learn a lot from your stories.

Thanks for sending us to school. You’re right. A person is unfulfilled with his life without education.

Thank you because you loved Mama. Without the two of you, nobody will write this letter.

I’m sorry for having a daughter who does not know how to listen and ignores everything in her surroundings. I just wanna let you know that she loves you so much. She feels sorry ‘cause she has no courage to say this things to you directly. You might think that she’s coward, but then she doesn’t loose courage to love and respect you.

Wait, you know that you’re the most important guy in my life right now. But when the time came that my prince pick me up and bring me to his castle, please don’t be jealous. He’ll be the first and you’ll be the second. I’m sorry but I hope you understand.

Finally, I thank God because he gave me a nice father (be contented with the word that I used—nice.) Unlike others who don’t have fathers or have fathers but they are not fathers at all, I’m really lucky.
Enough for now. I hope you’ll read this soon.
I will be writing you back. Take care of yourself.

Your eldest,
Charnnie
P.S. please don’t lessen my allowance for saying I hate you… :)
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